Am I My Sister’s
Keeper
Journey to your
Authentic Self
Masks
April 27, 2013
I’ve
come through my surgery like a champ. I
had my brave face on. That’s just what
it was a front a face, a mask. Let’s
talk about masks for a second. For me,
mine is a superman mask or superwoman. All my friends and family believe that I
can jump tall buildings in a single bound while bringing home the bacon and
frying it up in a pan. Truth is I can’t. All my life I have heard that I am strong,
that I can handle anything that comes my way.
The truth is I hide my anxiety well. Although surgery went well, I am afraid. I identified myself one way, now I have to recreate myself in a new way. I am the same me but different. It is something to be said when you have a piece of you that you’ve had for 40 plus years cut out of you. Do I continue to put on my superwoman mask and say all is well when I’m asked how I’m doing or do I tell the truth? You guessed it. I tell the truth. The only way to get through this and to truly come into my authentic self is to tell the truth. The truth is I am scared. I am tired of recreating myself. I am tired of trying to do all of this alone. (A deep breath here)
People this is hard. For anyone who has gone through a trauma or a life-changing event it can be very hard to recover. But know one thing. You Can Do It! Surround yourself with positive people. Look to those who are older, wiser, or have gone through what you have gone through for help. Know that you are not alone. Don’t be afraid to ask for help. Being true to self is knowing when you are in over your head and need help. Being strong means to reach out to others and then give back when others are in need.
I believe in you like I believe in me!
As always this is a live blog so feel free to express yourself and add your own personal truth.
Thanks for reading!
1 comment:
Its good to see you are blogging your surgery experience, it helps to get things out and sometimes it feels better to put them on paper (or computer). Continue to be honest and say how you feel about what you are going through. Nobody is perfect and everybody has concerns worries,and fears. Hell I'm a nurse and was still freaked out over "going under" even though I've taken care of people in their 70's and 80's who have came through major surgeries. Stay honest and use this as a learning experience and you can be there for the next woman who may have to face what you had to face! Love ya sis!
-Margaret
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